Bugger Toronto

Much, much fun was had on recent trip. This cannot be diminished, included as it did productive, illuminating meetings (three), shocking number of friends seen and bon(d)ed with, spectacles tried on, secrets shared, cocktails drunk, babies kissed, booties shook, and late night/morning shaking.
Sadly, this was overshadowed by pit in stomach, unwanted tears and incoherence when writing email and mad desire to shake fist at sky during ludicrously innumerable times walked by his flat.

One wishes one did not care, but I do. And I am mourning, mourning the loss of this weird wonderful friendship something fierce.

Am so twisted this hurts more than impending unemployment.

A travesty, it is.